Confussedd

Hey, so ive been working a lot lately. I work at ruby tuesdays, a restuarant, as a host. but im going to be a server cuz they make a shitload of money. but i have to take some tests and stuff. Ummm... i havent worked out at all for the past 3 days. and i "binged" a little. so im back at 168. fml. ummm also, i would have the munchies cuz i wasnt myself. hahaha i was on cloud 29, if ya kno what i mean. i need to stop that. im gonna quit ASAP! cuz that makes me fattt and i need to lose weight. hmmm i go to work in 2 hours.

and this one guy wants me to come over, but i really dont wanna go. cuz im so fat. and hes really really hot. and cut, and muscular. and cute! damn. idk why he even wants to see me. well, im not gonna see him today. i already made a plan. when i hit 150 lbs, then i can see him and do whatever. and theres this other guy, his nickname is "Liar"  we used to have a thing and we used to text eachother all day and all night and stuff. then we stopped. and now we never text or anything. i really miss him. and i think he has an eating disorder, cuz he like starves himself and NEVER eats. and he hates, HATES fat girls. im fat.

he hates me. well, when im 125 lbs, im gonna text him. hopefully. when i hit 125 lbs.

well, im also about to get my period, so that means ill be getting fat and lazy. BLAHHH and this week is finals and exams. so ima be sooo stressed and going crazzyyyy!!! ahhhhh, this will be my last post for the whole week prolly.

omg, and im getting sick and depressedd....w.e. ill just starve myself like all of you. that seems to work you u guys so yea. gahh idk why im so pissed and sad.

uhm... yea ok bye w.e.



heres a recent pic of me...ewwy!