Sunday, February 27, 2011

Because...


Because my skinny clothes are SO much cuter than my fat clothes.
Because it feels great to walk into a store and be able to try on anything.
Because it feels great to have to ask for a smaller size.
Because there really is no such thing as too thin.
Because nothing beatsthe feeling of a size 0 fallingoff my hip bones.
Actually, nothing beats seeing my hip bones.
Because I’m sick and tired of comparing my current self to my skinny self and feeling sad about it.
Because I haven’t heard, “Wow, you’re so thin!” in a long time.
Because “You look healthy now” really means “My Godyou’re so fat!” (or at the very least “My God you’re not skinny!”)
Because it feels better tobe teased for being too thin than too fat.
Because eating makes me miserable. Because I was neverready 2 recover in the first place.
Because the Christmas presents I got last year don’t fit this year.
Because I may as well just finish what I started.
Because when a guy picksyou up, he’ll tell you howlight you are, and can easily carry you upstairs,lay you down softly, & kiss you good night.
Because being thin makes you prettier.
Because bones= pretty, & fat = ugly.
Because it sucks being the fat girl in your group of friends.
Because it is so much more fun to show off your body in a bikini at the pool instead of staying home getting fatter by the minute.
Because you have power and control others only dream of having.
Because when you’re thin, you don’t feel foolish for having dreams of becoming an actress or model.
Because bones feel better than rolls of disgusting blubber.
Because summer and bathing suits are heaven when you’re thin.
Because you have come too far to let something as disgusting as food get in your way.


thinkthinamy:

(via stickling)This is all over my dash. I love you for making this. <3 

 wow made me tear (‘:


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skinnyobsession:

sharpbones:

donttalkjustlove:

bikinifetish:

jachic:(via artonkels)



oh.my.gorgeous.

skinny-amour:

ohwishes:

yellow-light:

(via bikinifetish)

ps. i WILL break the 140s

Thursday, February 24, 2011

What kind of body do you want?

Hello lovelys,

First off, I have to tell you all that its that time of the month, so saying that, i might be grumpy or pissed or eat tons. -__-  anyways, I basically ruined the month february by my eating that week.  I am at 157 lbs. Grr I HATE the 150s, I need to get over this hump. But ive decided to start a new workout program. Its called INSANITY. Heehee, i like the name of it, sounds dangerous. But its crazy cardio workout cds everyday for 60 days. I will stick to it, I promise. I am going to post everyday about my workout and what i ate when i start Insanity. Im starting March 1st, cuz thats when ill get the cds. Cant wait! Ohh, and what kind of body do yall want? At first i thought i wanted a model body, ya know, just skinny all over, no boobs no butt, but now i kinda want an athlete body, I want my boobs to stay and maybe have a little butt. lol. but i know i want a perfect belly. Fit and slim. Yumm

In other news, I hate school, and I got a D on my history test, fml. Anddd on top of that i had a paper due today but didnt finish it so I have to do it tomorrow. Basically, Im drowning in school and tests and crap. I want spring break to be here already! I just need one stressfree week, then ill be okay, hopefully. Work is ehh, not really fun anymore. Im thinking bout quiting Ruby tuesdays cuz its just drama and fake ppl and i dont make that much money there... Blah...

Hmm, its getting warm here, so its almost time for spring/summer clothes. Uh oh. body bearing season. this means i really need to lose this blubber. Fast. I wanna be 120 lbs by June.  If i stick to the workout plan i think i can do it. Also, OMG my bestfriend got her clavicle pierced this weekend, and its soo hot! And im so jelous of her... If only i had clavicles like hers... Boo. Well, i g2g and try to do this paper. I wish something amazing happens in my life wight now.

xoxo
Pariis
p.s.- hello new followers! and welcome. :)

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Horrible, Just horrible.

Well...I dont know whats wrong with me, but this whole week, ive been eating. I dont know why, I just eat? Like im telling myself stop eating while eating, but i keep eating. And Ive never been like that. For the past month, ive been eating light, and eating normally, but now I feel like a vacuum, eating everything in my path.

I dont know what to do.
I dont know whats wrong with me.
Even thinspo doesnt help.


I start talking to Mars again... I think that has something to do with all this eating.
Fuck my life to the max.
157lbs
I was supposed to be149lbs right now.
Fuck.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!?!?
I just wanna be skinny.






Tuesday, February 15, 2011

New boy. Weird boy.

So, i know i said i wouldnt post till i hit the 140's BUT i have to tell you guys something. The other day i went to the mall with my friends, and we went into spencers where they have like sex toys and gothic things and gauges. Well, i went in there cuz i was getting some gauges, and there were these 2 guys looking at the gauges too. So one thing led to another and i ended up giving him my number. BIG MISTAKE.  He was kinda cute when i saw him. But geez, he is psycho! he added me on fb, and not to be mean or anything but he really wasnt my type... butt thats not the psycho part. We were just texting the first couple of days, just innocent texting, then today he wanted to hang out and i agreed, but i said ill bring my friends too. So basiclly at the end, i didnt go and he got mad. Then thats when things got creepyyyyy. He was acting like weve been together for ever and just saying wierd crap. But i sorted things out and everything was going smooth, until it became sexual, and not the good kind of sexual. Ill just stop here, cuz the details would creep you guys outtt! But Im still in shock, thats how bad it is. Ive stopped texting him, and im thinking about deleting him off my fb. But im scared of what he'd do if he finds out. Yea, so thats what im dealing with.

Anyways, I currently weigh somewhere around 153 lbs. Grr I really wanna be in the 140s... just 4 more pounds. Ive stopped eating like an animal, and my friend has noticed. She asked me today if i was starving myself. lol. I played it off of course. But im really not, i had subway for lunch. and thats about it. lol

Ohh and another thing, i was hanging out at work today, and all the boys were surrounding me and giving me SO MUCH attention. It was fun :) I kinda enjoyed it. But i wish i was skinnyer so i would have more confidence. Ehh Yea that was really fun. But i really wanna guy. Just to have, and mess with. (i feel like such a hoe!)  lol But i always attract the wrong guys, ALWAYS. It sucks. I wish cupid helps me out with this situation. lol, But also, today my horoscope told me to work out. lol I though that was funny. But I pinky promise this time i wont blog till i am really 149 lbs.

Some sugar for the sweets






p.s. anafly-thank you so much, I actually made the layout myself. and your so gorgeous, from your words to ur looks. stay beautiful :) 

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Pursuit of happiness

Hey loves.

How are you? Like honestly, how are you?

Have you ever thought about life and its purpose? If your happy or not? Where youll be in 10 years? Well, ive been thinking. And i dont really know where ill be in 10 years, but i do know that ill be happy. Ill be happy with my life, my body, my family, and my school. I will. Because what i do today, will pass on to tomorrow. And today im happy.

First, I want to thank alll of you for taking time out of ur life, and reading my boring old blog aka my diary.  It means a lot. Truly, thank you.

Well, where should i start. Right now, im just swamped with school. I had an exam today but skipped it cuz i wasnt ready, so hopefully my professor will let me take it later this week. My chem and history class are okay, kinda fun, but lotsa work. Blah. And lab for chemistry is HORRIBLE! the professor talks. so. slow. and. takes. long. pauses. between. every. sentence.  But ill put up with it.

Anyways, Ive been doing really well with food and exercise lately. I think i can reach the 140s by next week. :) Yay.  Maybe. Hopefully.  Ive been eating small portions and staying away from the sucky sweet food. But i didnt work out the past 2 days cuz i was at a friends house and she doesnt know im trying to lose weight. i dont think she even sees anything different about me even though i lost about 20 lbs.  Oh well.

Recently, someone(bostoniancouture ) commented on my blog and asked me to tell them about my "diet plan/theory" So I guess ill let you guys know. Its not really expert advise, but this is what  i do.

Everyday, I try to eat a small breakfast before working out, my fav is special K cereal with the strawberries. Then i get on my elliptical in my basement and run for 45 mins which shows i burn around 800 calories, but i stay on till it hits 1000 cals. Then i do a workout from p90x which is sometimes fun, but after that i eat small snacks throughout the day and one lunch which is usually subway chicken breast. So on this day, i can eat up to 1700 calories and still lose weight, and thats it!

So, to summarize it- Burn more calories then you eat. And work out in the morning so u have no excuse NOT to workout later in the day. Easy as pie(as in pies are hard to make but easy to eat. get it? lol)

Yay! that is all, Oh and ive made myself a promise that I cant blog until ive reached 149 lbs. So, ill be back in a week? :) Yea? Ok! You all stay wonderful, kay?

xoxo Pariis











Thursday, February 3, 2011

Feeling the BUUURN!

Hey everyone, i just finished up my workout and i feel amazing and energized! I did the elliptical again burning 1000 calories :) yay! then i did cardio X from P90x and it was awesome, but i didnt do Ab ripper so I HAVE to do it tomorrow. So with only cardio i prolly burned maybe 500 calories. Im so glad im back on track. I have really missed working out actually. Haha, but i really wanna reach my next goal weight. Like i really really really wanna be in the 140s!  Uhhh Im about to eat some special K cereal now. My plan is to just have cereal and fruits and veggies all day, lets see if i can actually commit to that, lol! Aghhhh Im so pumped and hyper now idk what to do! lol.  Ok so plan for today:

1.eat cereal
2. Shower for school
3. Go to school
4.Come home and do homework?

I dont know what to do after class cuz usually i go to work but i dont work thursdays anymore so i guess ill do my homework and NOT eat. :)

Tip for everyone- exercise in the morning! it makes your whole day wonderful!

Hmm what else, Oh! i can kinda see my collerbones! yay, and ive been noticing everyone else's around me, I really wanna be in the 140s, Please oh please!

And thank you for the comments on my last post, Anafly, Anonymous, and Bella. You all are truely wonderful and my motivation, I dont wanna let you guys or myself down. :) And yes, the more calories i burn the faster ill get to my goal. <3

My body is kinda sore though...I love that feeling, like its sore cuz i did something and i worked hard. Ahhh!

Oh and one question for my lovely readers, What is your favorite diet food? Something you can eat without feeling guilty? Mine is cereal. lol

Stay beautiful!
xoxo Pariis

P.S. Anafly, yes that girl is beautiful, Ive seen A LOT of pics of her, who is she?






Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Cramps & other girl crap

:/ yup, thats right, its that time of the month. and i feel like shit. I just have cramps and mood swings and craving, ugh cravings :( Today i ate a chicken buffulo sandwich. Yuck. Now my stomach is hurting, idk if from the cramps or the snadwich..or both?

and my wieght is outragous. I dont even wanna talk about it, but hopefully itll drop in the next few days after my period, cuz i usually gain weight on my period then drop it all when its over. Anddd today i burned 1000 calories on the elliptical then did a P90x workout- core synergistics which burned around 600-800 calories. So im proud of myself for that! :) But i really really need to reach 145 lbs by the end of this month or my whole weight plan will fail. tomorrow im going to run on the elliptical again and do the P90x cardio and ab ripper. And maybe this time ill eat right, i really wanna try the special K challenge but idk... what do u guys think of it?

Uhh valintines day is coming up, worst holiday ever. Ive never had a valintine, and ill prolly not have one this year either. :/ but im used to it so what ev. Umm nothing else has been happening....except i got a really pretty dress! for my friends birthday party thing. its a size 7? idk if that a good thing or bad? but uhh its really cute, its simple and short. ill put a pic up once i wear it. Uhhh other then that nothin interesting has been going on...just crossing my fingers that i lose some weight soon please! but uh its th-th-thinspo time! :D