Bow chicka wow wow

Broke into the 140s.... FINALLY! took long enough damnit. lol, but no, im extremely happy about this. Next goal is 139lbs by the end of June. This healthy thing is actually working out! I eat delicious foods and i dont feel like shit after or regret it or anything! And no binges!!! Im still not happy with my body but you know what, Im getting there. maybe not tomorrow, but im on the right path. :) cant wait to kick some ass in June. Also, i made a myfitnesspal account to record my calories, it really helps. But yes thats the update about my weight.

Still no boys :( boo... I barley text anyone at all. Its just been me, work, and school..Oh and running and exercising. I think im in love with running. I know right, i never thought id say that in a million years, but it takes off so much stress and i LOVE the endophins, its like my own personal drug. Ahhh

somethings i want-
-a boyfriend, or a boytoy
-to get fit, and actually form abs or just have a tight stomach
-reach 120lbs by my birthday ( August 10th! dont forget!)
-Do really well in my summer classes, cuz i did shit in spring
(i have the lowest GPA everrr)
and that is all for now, id also like to learn how to skateboard but thatll have to wait till my summer classes are over. anywho, that was just a quick update, hope yall are doing well!

xoxo, Parris

Boys Boys Boys

wow, so i love attention from boys. Not like an attention whore, but just being noticed.

So today, as i was driving to school for my summer class, bumping music out loud in my car, i look in my rear view mirror and saw him. My old crush who i fell for and actually wanted to be with. His name, Luis. We havent talked since like january and i saw him in my rear view mirror in his car. WTF? is that a coincidence or what? Hes going to attend my college this fall and i swear im gonna be skinny by then. If he sees me like this, omg. Not even gonna think about it, but anyways when i saw him, i hit the accelerator and zoomed outta there. I didnt want him to see me...not yet. I want him to see me skinny and fit and looking absolutely amazing! So then hell regret stop talking to me. Yea, WHAT NOW LUIS.

Lol, yea, anyways, Also, i went to the mall after class to get some new shoes, i went into Journeys and there was a hot guy there, and basically we were flirting the whole time he tried to find me shoes. It was wierd, like i didnt have confidence in me, i didnt act like myself. Idk, id thought since losing weight and everything, id gain confidence, but i was just wierd about it. idk....im still trying to figure out why i was acting weird.

But yea, thats all i had to say. Im so hungry but its 10:04 right now and i wanna eat but i cant so im debating if i should eat a snack or something. ahhh i should just go to sleep and eat a really big breakfast tomorrow morning. YES! thats what im gonna do, geez ive missed blogger and talking to myself. Onto homework, tumblr, and sleep! NO FOOD :)

ttyl, Pariis

btw, when i went to the mall, i saw soooo many cute clothes and bikinis -__- and i couldnt wear any of em, but thats alright, i will soon! I also got goal-shorts, cant wait to wear em out in public.

Sorry for not blogging anymore but...

TUMBLR IS THE BEST! For everyone here that still reads my blog (which is prolly no one) come to the tumblr community! its so great and motivational. I am on there almost everyday getting motivated to lose weight  and stick to it. Also, i learn alot more about how to lose wight and maintain and foods that are good for you and everything! So come and join  me loves :)

Ive been doing Great with my weight loss. Im so motivated, and i exercise a lot more.Im Happy. Before tumblr, id weigh myself everyday and be dissapointed with what id see on the scale and just binge and get frusterated and id do this everyday, feeling like a failure EVERYDAY. Now i only weigh myself once a week, and i try to eat healthy as possible. Even if i mess up or binge, its ok, cuz i have time to fix it by my weigh in day. Like for example, i had pizza last night. and ya know what. i didnt feel guilty eating it. i didnt feel guilty after either. I will just workout extra hard to day, and eat my best. So if you want, come join me on tumblr.

miss yall, love yall
xoxo
Pariis

Must not give in!

Hey girls, glad u liked my last post! It motivated me to keep going too haha. Well right now, im trying to keep myself from weighing myself till saturday. Saturdays are my weigh in days, and I dont wanna weigh myself till then, so i dont lose hope or get sidetracked.  Also, I have to go running in a few minutes. The plan for today is:

1. Run on elliptical for 30-45 mins
2. P90X workout for an hour
3. Lunch at subway (yumm)
4. Study for finals.(yuckk)
5.Wash dishes :(

Okay, so i HAVE TO follow my plan, no excuses or anything! And no tumbling or facebook either.

xoxo- Pariis

i know, i know...

Well girls, its a new month. Again. Are we going to fuck it up like last month? Say we are going to lose weight this month and not do shit to get there? Make plans and stay motivated just the first day, then blow it all off till the first of next month? Doing the same thing every month, hoping that this month will be better then the last?

No. Im done. Im not going to blow this month off like the past ones. I dont even care its a new month, its a new day for me, and im going to take advantage of this and rock it. I am going to control today to my best ability, so what if there are curveballs? So what if I go out unexpectedly with the family. I will control myself, because if i dont start today, ill regret it, thats one day gone, one day i coulve gotten closer to my goal. No.

I refuse. I will only think of today, what my actions from today will predict my weight tomorrow and tomorrow until i reach my goal. We are NOT gonna reach our goal if we only think of reaching our goal and how wonderful itll be to be thin and wear cute clothes and be happy. What we have to think about is what we are going to do to get there. Today. Right now. What are u going to do right now to better yourself from yesterday? To get to tomorrow? To get to your goal? Daydreaming about it will NOT get you there, sitting on your ass and looking at thinspo will NOT get you there. Thinking about the results will NOT get you there. But thinking of ways to get there, actually doing things to get there WILL get you there. Actions speak louder then words and thoughts. Put your thoughts into action. Now. Not in a couple of hours, not tomorrow morning, NOW.

Eating is so easy for us, like breathing. It comes naturally to put things in our mouth and eat it like its nothing. So today, we are going to control everything 'natural'... our breathing, our blinking, our eating. Think before we eat, listen to our heartbeat, actually get in touch with ourselves. But thats not all. We also have to exercise. Its like a lock and a key- a key is useless if theres no lock, and a lock is useless without a key. As eating right is useless without exercise, and exercise is useless without eating right. Put both together and youll open the lock to success.

I hope you all, including myself, do great today. ( notice i said today, not this month) Make today wonderful, think only of today, right now. No past or present. Right now.

Set a goal-> Make a plan-> Follow plan-> STICK TO PLAN->Reach goal.
Make one for today, tomorrow, this month, this year. You can do this. One day at a time.

xoxo- Pariis
p.s. I have a tumblr! follow me at http://thinlover.tumblr.com/

May has 31 days. Each day can bring you one step closer to your goal, or push you one step back. 31 chances to fail, or to succeed. Let's succeed.