Happy isnt easy

Hey, so... Georgetown was a success! We took the metro there, and did some walking to the Washington monument, then just hung out there. Sat on the grass and talked and took pictures(which i look so fat and horrible in). Then we went to some bar/restaurant place and i got an asain salad :) It was amazing. Then we went to Georgetown Cupcake but the line was soooo long, they said it was about a two hour wait so we were just gonna go home, but one of my friends really really really wanted a cupcake, so we were on a cupcake hunt and found another cupcake place called Sprinkles, which i thought was the same as Georgetown cupcakes. I ended up having 1 1/2 cupcakes. Not mad at myself cuz we walked so much i prolly burned one cupcake off. Haha, then we went to my friends house and watched a movie and had sunchips. I thought it was an okay day, fun too!

That was thursday, Friday i worked all day and had some tofu and pasta, it was amazing. Im actually thinking about becoming a vegetarian. Cuz i like tofu, and it would stop me from eating lots of my fav fatty foods like chicken quasadillas and burritos ( i only eat white meat now) So i would have an excuse not to eat it. I think im going to start today :) 

Saturday, I went to my coaching job in the morning and at the end, i twisted my ankle. -__- wtf. It was kinda embarrassing  cuz i was running in front of all the kids and parents, and just dropped. I heard a click and a roll.But i played it off pretending i was tieing my shoes. lol And the rest of the day i was home and could barley walk. So i was just sitting bored at home with a twsted ankle,then Mars messaged me again... Man oh man, I dont even know where to begin. It went something like this...


Mars-Hey
me-Hi
Mars- I havent seen u in forever
me- Sorry, im always busy
Mars-Oh when can u see me?
me-When are u free
Mars- You home?
me- Yea,  i twisted my ankle today :(
Mars- So u cant come over and see me?
me- No babe i can barley walk
(blah blah blah, cut to the point)
joking about a threesome
me-Whats wrong with threesomes?
Mars-I dont share
me-Greedy
Mars-I'm not greedy u wouldn't want to share me anyway
me- Im sharing u right now, u just dont know ;)
Mars- Lol oh so how are you sharing me, ur letting my gf have me ??
me-haha yeah
Mars- Oh why would u share?
me- cuz its not a big deal
Mars- So sharing or I'm not a big deal to u ??
me-(i was cracking up here hahahha) haha sharing...
Mars- Oh well im upset ur not coming over :(
me-Ill make it up next week :)
Mars-How?
me- ummm idk, got any ideas?
Mars-No ur the one making it up, you pick (he was thinking of sexual things, obvioulsy) 
me- Well can u help me outt, what do u like
Mars- No itll only be special if u come up with it
me- Ur making this harder then its supposed to be...just tell me.
Mars- Truthfully I can't answer u have to 
me-why
Mars- Cus #1 I have a gf #2 I want u to choose
me- hahaha, 1. im letting her borrow u from me, its temporary. and 2. i chose. :)




Anywho, I feel like a homewrecker. But i also feel like he is initaiting it so its not that bad, anddd I dont really like him, hes just there to mess with...i know, that sounds bad but girls just wanna have fun! haha and hes the one with the girlfriend. So w.e. 


I dont wanna see him till i break the 140s so i kinda HAVE TO reach it by saturday. And i cant even run or workout cuz of my ankle... So i guess i have to watch what i eat.

Thats basically all that happen, Oh and HAPPY EASTER! the good thing about my family is that we dont celebrate easter so no food but my lil sis did get lots of candy and chocolate eggs. But still :) no binge or food, ive had cereal and a smoothie so far. :) and im feeling good! So now ill do some homework and read your wonderful blogs! 


ps-sorry about this loong post. lol so lots of fitspo and thinspo 

Not again...

So, once again, i have stopped following my plan. Wtf. I seriously cant achieve anything longterm at all. I dont know how much i weigh, i dont wanna know either. Its also that time of the month. So lotsa bloating and stuff. Today was 4/20. National weed day, where u smoke a shit ton and get so high, you could eat a star. Well i couldnt celebrate cuz i was stuck in school studying for a test that im pretty sure i failed. Boo. Today was just no success. 

Oh, but i did talk to my sister... We just talked about life and boys, and school and stuff. I think it was better then getting high, and no munchies. Lol. My head hurts, its 3:10 am. and i have to wake up at 9:15am to go to D.C. Blah. Exams are coming up soon, gotta write my holocoust paper, and other shit. Ugh

I had a burrito today. A fucking burrito. Like the worst food to eat. Ever. but thats all i had. I feel like weightloss is such a big thing to me, and i cant even do it. I should be thinking about loosing weight all the time, but i forget and eat and eat and eat, then once im full, i realise what i did. *Eat like a elephant. 

So, for the next couple of day, my first priority is my weight. Im going to eat minimum and still go on with my day as normal. Tomorrow, me and my 2 friends are going to Georgetown, D.C. where they wanna get the famous Georgetown cupcakes, and prolly eat out somewhere. Im going to have a salad or a turkey burger. And as for the cupcake...Ill share one or say i have no money left to buy any. And also, we'll be doing lots of walking there so ill get at least some exercise. Ookay. Lets hope everything works out okay tomorrow.

Night, sweet dreams.

xoxo-Pariis

Fitspiration 

Some advice

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2010.
7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
8. Sleep for 7 hours.
9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
10. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
11. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
12. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
13. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
14. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
15. Dream more while you are awake.
16. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
17. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
18. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
19. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
20. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
21. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
22. Smile and laugh more.
23. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
24. Call your family often.
25. Each day give something good to others.
26. Forgive everyone for everything.
27. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
28. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
31. Do the right thing!
32. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
33. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
35. The best is yet to come.
36. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

30 Day shred- Day 2-3

So, somehow i gained weight in the past couple days. Wtf?

Im not gonna say how much i weigh right now, but my goal is 153 lbs by saturday. Ive been doing the shred and all day yesterday and today my arms and calves were sore. And its been going well, just not on the scale...cuz i feel like I look thinner but the scale says different. And i know the scale is right. Hmm. FML

And ive been eating healthy, had special K for breakfast, subway for lunch, and an apple and banana for dinner. So idk whats with the damn scale, its making me mad... Grr.

Uhm nothing else is going on, just that I got some 'stuff' to help me focus on my big exams that are coming up. Yeaaa, surprisingly i dont have much to say right now. Weird.

kay then, ttyl beautys!

xoxo-Pariis

ps-one of the girls on the shred dvd has such a nice frickin body i just stare at her while working out, it really motivates me.

anddd omfg, 52 followers? thanks guys! I hope u enjoy my rambling lol. I try not to bore u guys, but if i do, sorry! :)

its a heart!^

30 Day shred- Day 1

Weigh in- 155 lbs
Intake- coffee, subway, salad, pasta
Level 1

Hi guys, guess what! I started the 30 day shred by Jillien Micheals today. Supposedly you can lose up to 20 lbs in 30 day. At first i didnt believe this, i thought it was just advertising to make people buy the dvd. But omfg, let me tell you, i was litterly sweating like an animal. My face was dripping from sweat, it was gross but in a good way. And i thought the dvd would be really easy since I have done some p90x, but wow, I was in for a surprise. I managed to keep up for the most part, and the greatest thing about it is ITS ONLY 20 MINUTES! :) Its so doable and after the workout i felt so energized and pumped. I cant wait till tomorrows workout.

I also had a BIG paper due today and a chemistry test (which i bombed) :( I did good on the paper though...not so hot on the test, but im keeping my fingers crossed that i hopefully passed. And omg, today was soo hot out, i couldnt keep my clothes on at home. So when i was getting ready for school, I wanted to wear something cute and summerish...but then reality hit and i saw how FAT i was. Boo :( I ended up wearing jeans and a teeshirt... it sucks not being able to wear what you want... Thats fine, ill be 20 lbs lighter in 30 day hopefully.

I am taking like 6 classes over the summer. So im really not looking forward to it and i still have my current classes to worry about. Ugh i have soo much to do.
-history paper
-history quiz
-chem presentation
-chem journal
-calc hw
-clean room
-work in the morning
-workout after work
-a lot more :(

^just some notes for me to follow. lol
Anywho, I start talking to mars again, just as friends though, cuz he has a girlfriend... I want a fuckin boyfriend damnit, a hot, sexy, built, boyfriend that i could showoff. Armcandy, thats what i need. Lol.

Stay lovely kay?
xoxo-Pariis

omg, yummm ^

i dont even need any thinspo. i will be skinny so i can have a piece of Bradly Cooper

THIN THIN THIN= LOVE LOVE LOVE

Well, what do ya know. Another 'compliment' today from my manager/friend at a party.

"Have u been working out?"

"You look in shape"

Blah. Thanks!...I guess...

btw, i didnt run this morning. -__- didnt wake up. Fml. and didnt eat well either.

Had subway for lunch, then asain chicken dumplings and a beer. Gross.

Today was very interesting. I was at Ruby tuesdays(restaurant where i work)  meeting up with my friend when i ran into an old friend. Rahul. He was my neighbor and we used to always sit next to eachother on the bus in high school. We both hated school and we were kinda really good freinds, best friends. But when i saw him today (seeing him for the first time since high school) He looked different. He got his ear pierced, no braces, dressed well, he looked mature and handsome? lol he looked handsome. haha umm He looked well. Lol that sounds better. But yea we start talking and i was like wow! you look so different, and he was like "yea i am different, and you look different too, you look beautiful.".... He called me beautiful. idk, i thik i might have a crush on him...But hes not my type at all! and hes just one of those nice guys. Well in the end, he got my number and said we should catch up which i def want to. I feel like this will be interesting. We shall seee...

Anywho... thats about all for today. (thought this was gonna be a short post but guess not. lol) some thinspo then sleeep <3

xoxo Pariis

ps-thanks for all your wonderful comments, they really get me through the tough days

Ugh Is this a good thing or bad?

Weight: 155.4lbs
Intake: cereal, thai salad, chicken quesadilla, salad. :(
Overall day: Bad day
Exercise: None :(

Okay, so I dont know why but all last week and this week people have been noticing my weight change. Is that a good thing or bad? Was i so fat before that there was that big of a change? I mean geez....

So this morning i went to my coaching job, where I coach little kids how to play soccer once every week. And there was this little boy who ive been coaching since December of last year. So at the end of the the session, his mom comes up to me and makes small talk and to get to the point, she says "wow, ur look like youve lost some weight" and im like oh yea ive been trying to get healthy blah blah blah. and she says yea theres a big difference, because i have a pic of you from last year coaching tyler, ill bring it in next time! -__- the parents always take pics of there kid playing soccer and i guess i was in the pic.

Like wtf?i have enough pics of me fat. But idk why i hate when ppl notice my weight...like im still fat, im HUGE. I cant even break to the 140s, thats how fat i am. Ugh, a couple days ago i was at 153, now im back to 155. WTF?!?! This whole weight loss thing is so annoying. I just want to starve myself till im skelator. But i know thats not gonna work... I mean i know i can starve myself, but thats not the 'healthy' way. FML. Nobody said this was gonna be easy... I just have to exercise ALOT more then i am right now (which is none) Okay, lets take small steps?

Mission #1
Wake up at 10 and go for a little run. Easy as pie.
Thats all i have to do, is wake up at 10 and go run. (i just set my alarm)

In other news, I had a history test, i think i did alright on it :) yay atleast one good thing today...K sweet dreams beautifuls. Ill let yall know how my run was tomorrow morning!

xoxo
Pariis

ps-sorry these posts have been shitty, i just dont know who else to talk to... :/

perfection^

Hello!
Intake today: cereal, piece of chicken, 3 brownies, 2% milk.

So i did okay today, I got on the scale today and it showed 153, which i think is COMPLETELY wrong. Its too low. Way too low. We will see tomorrow morning. I hope its the same, but im not gonna get my hopes up.

Anyways, some updates. On Friday, I went to my waitressing job(work there once a week now), and i litterly got  so many comments about my weight. Like, "Have u been working out?" "Your waist looks smaller!" and "Wow, u look thinner." Yea, I felt like a billion bucks. Lol. But yea dont u just LOVE skinny comments!? Made my day 100% better.  But i still have a looooooong way to go. But in one step closer to my goal! Yay

Anyways, I also went shopping on thursday i think? But yea, me and my friend went to Victorias Secret, and i got some yoga pants, makeup kit, perfume, and a free umberlla! the umberella is so cute! and its been rainy these past days so i cant wait to use it! yay, But OMFG when i was in the store, i felt to huge and fat, and i felt like people were starring at me like why am i even in this store, this store is for skinny people who can pull off cute undies and bras. Not for fat people who cant even look at themselves in the mirror. It was  a good reminder of what i wanted. Pictures of all the VS models everywhere! Ugh, it was overwhelming.

yeaaaaa thats about it for me. Havent been working out like i told myself i would :/ Grr I will tomorrow though cuz my scheduale is FREE all day. I swear i will! Ohh and, I just start using Pro-active, the stuff for pimples. Lol, and i relly like it, my face is really clearing up. lol, i feel like im going through a swan tranformation.

In other news, still no boys im interested in :( Grr I seriously cant find a decent guy to like. It sucks. Like theres no guy out there worth my time... Oh well, gotta better myself then> Kk ttyl!

xoxo
Pariis

(One of my fav pics!^)