Hello lovely lovely people. Im probebly talking to myself, but thats good. I guess.
Ive been doing bad lately. and i cant go anywhere or tell anyone so i came here. Hope you dont mind.
Ive start purging unintentionally.
I mean im doing it on purpose, but i dont know how it started. I am back up to 150 lbs unfortunatly, so ive been exercising and trying to eat right but its not working. Im just so lazy now i dont want to work out, and i eat EVERYTHING and anything. Ive lost control.
control.
I have no control. Its terrible. I just dont know what to do anymore. I might be slipping into depression or some kind of mental health issue. And i dont like it. Not one bit. My sister walked in on me while i was purging. I told her i was sick.
I dont know what to do anymore. I think im going to cry myself to sleep tonight, and i havent cried in a long long time. Im just not the crying type. Honestly, what is wrong with me?
Wrong?
I am sorry for coming here with all my problems. but i just didnt now where else to go. okay now... im going to bed now. tomorrow im going to eat 800 calories.
sweet dreams, loves!
